December 26, 2009

paranoia

I have that icky feeling, the one I used to get all the time as a teenager. Like I did something wrong, but I'm not sure what it could be. And now I'm in trouble, and someone is coming; coming to punish me. I feel sick and unsettled and a little bit scared. I'd hoped that reading for awhile would help. But it didn't.

I miss Pam. I wish my package would get here.
I could just cry for wanting it so much.

2 comments:

  1. wow, i jumped on to publish another quick post and saw this on my dashboard. A friend and I call that feeling you described impending doom. Boy do i get that feeling. yuck.

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  2. I still get that feeling and I am 44 years old. I have learned to recognize it...and try to see it for what it is and not necessarily a reality. I have always just considered myself a horrible worrier. I never realized that other people have the same problem. Hope you are feeling better now.

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