June 25, 2012

hush, hush, shhh

I think I will never have too much of the sound of the wind and the sea.
It reaches me in a way nothing else can.


Not quite sure what's going to happen with S. It's not over yet, but it might be soon. I spent the weekend at the beach to distract myself from the fact that we decided to not speak for a few days, while we think things through.

It's been a really hard week. I don't know if we can bounce back or not. And I was right: it hurts. Even the not knowing hurts a lot. But this is what you open yourself up to, when you let yourself love someone.

I'm obsessing about it, even though I shouldn't. I can't help myself.

Or don't want to.

Either way.


Hush, hush, says the ocean. Shhhh...


  1. That is a beautiful quote.

    I'm sorry to hear that you and S are having troubles. I hope it is just a pause to think things through, to give you time to bounce back.

    The not knowing can be an agony. An agony that just seems to come with the territory of human companionship.

    Hoping that the distractions and the oceans ease your mind and that this all works out for the very best x

    1. It doesn't feel very best, but I suppose it will be. Thanks for the love.

  2. No one but Night, with tears on her dark face,
    watches beside me in this windy place.

    {Edna St. Vincent Millay}


    Pulling for you, Vera Kate, in whichever direction you want to go, closer or farther.

    Oh. How. Love. Hurts.


  3. I feel lame when I write 'hugs' but 'hugs' nonetheless.
    Love, Em

    1. Not lame at all! I'd never turn down a hug, in any form. Thanks.