June 25, 2012
hush, hush, shhh
I think I will never have too much of the sound of the wind and the sea.
It reaches me in a way nothing else can.
Not quite sure what's going to happen with S. It's not over yet, but it might be soon. I spent the weekend at the beach to distract myself from the fact that we decided to not speak for a few days, while we think things through.
It's been a really hard week. I don't know if we can bounce back or not. And I was right: it hurts. Even the not knowing hurts a lot. But this is what you open yourself up to, when you let yourself love someone.
I'm obsessing about it, even though I shouldn't. I can't help myself.
Or don't want to.
Hush, hush, says the ocean. Shhhh...