November 29, 2010

baby-daddy

It's not that I miss him tonight, exactly... But I miss having a lover, a partner, a champion; a friend. And I wonder when I will ever have that again, and with whom.

It seems the cruelest kind of irony that the very event that severed our connection permanently is the same one that ensured we would be bound to one another forever.

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You would have loved your daddy, No-No. I am sure of that much, at least. And I think he would have loved you more than he ever even knew he could. Certainly more than he loved me; but I'm okay with that. Perhaps he does love you, still; perhaps he remembers you, thinks about you, even now. I wish I knew.

I wish I didn't feel so alone in missing you.

5 comments:

  1. Hugs and love to you, my friend. I do understand all too well what you are feeling...

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  2. Sending my love. Wishing for your happy ending to come soon.

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  3. I am so sorry...wishing you peaceful and comforting days ahead. ((hugs))

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