July 30, 2010

4 weeks

Really I've been doing pretty well. But I suddenly realized that at this time last year, I was pregnant. I was blindsided by that simple fact, and I've been in a bit of a daze ever since. And there is this morbid countdown happening inside my head, now.

Last night I was trying to go to sleep and my heart was squeezing and squeezing and I could hardly breathe.


  1. i am so sorry. i don't know exactly how you feel, but I've lost a baby to miscarriage and it was heart wrenching. hugs. i am thinking of you.