I cried a lot, the last couple of weeks. Even more than I thought I would. I listened to Of Monsters And Men on repeat and cried and cried and cried. It was exhausting, but I do feel better now. My previous breakups have never been this intense. It either hadn't gotten very serious yet, or I hadn't put my whole heart and self into it in the first place.
God it hurts, when you're all in. Chalk it up to experience, though. One more aspect of the human condition with which I am now familiar. My happiness was so wonderful and precious to me -- but so was my deep and surprising sadness.
Yes, it was worth it. And yes, I will go right back out there, and try again. For the sake of the experience of both of those emotions, and everything in between.
You are in and in my thoughts, Vera Kate - like a glass overflowing with water, but I can't catch the drops.
ReplyDeleteYou are a never-quitter. You proved that from the start and have never stopped.
I want good to come. Come and stay and never leave.
I am sad S is gone. You are sadder. I know you won't quit. I still wish the sting of loving were not so sharp, but that is the way of true hearts.
You have one. "I wish to clasp your hand."
xo, and I mean it
CiM